Your absence lingers over a debt that’s self-imposed // To those
I keep around me, the same ones you held close // Though
it’s time I concede and embrace the defeat // That I might not double take at you on the street // It’s still a shame things played out the way that they did // I wonder if they hadn’t, if I’d still regret // The way that we lived, while I yearn to forget // How it was our teenage years came to their end // It’s a piece I’ll have to process, not one that I can own // As painful as that fact is, it’s the proper way to cope // When they used to call us old souls // We’d take pride, but act so bold // Not yet wise enough to notice // The fragility of youth // Though the fact is you should be here // The truth is that you’re gone // Because it’s all fun and games // Until someone won’t wake up // Back then we’d hear “you’re beyond your years” // Wasted breath that went, that went in one ear // Before it fell, it fell right out the other // We’d come to change the tense—the tense beside your name // Some of us have bands and // We know each other’s songs // Certain days remind us // You’re immortal in your youth // Though the tragedies we wove through // Bestow us with each verse // They still beckon up the burdens // We confront in waking up // Back then we’d hear “you’re beyond your years” // Wasted breath that went, that went in one ear // Before it fell, it fell right out the other // We’d come to change the tense—the tense beside your name // Though part of me resents you // I still hope that you’d be proud // Of the person I’m becoming // While the world falls to hell // The fact is you should be here // Though it’s not our fault you’re gone // Cause you’d be right up here beside us // But you overdosed on junk
credits
from The Ableist,
released January 22, 2021
Barry Cabrera – Guitar
Stephan Piven – Guitar
Jairus Paulus – Bass
Johnny Chacon – Drums
Paul Scanty – Lead Vocals
Gillian McGhee – Vocals
Ryan Morris – Vocals
supported by 4 fans who also own “Aelita (feat. Gillian McGhee & Ryan Morris)”
This is one of those albums where I have a different favourite track every week, and it's been like that since the release that is now a year ago. What a massive album, starting out with fist pumping chants and gradually getting more electro but always with that punk grit attitude. Top 3 of 2023. Gijs van Soest